I have strange ears.

My ears have lids. When I begin listening to English, the lids automatically close. I forcibly open the lids, but they wouldn't open. Moreover my neck gets stiff. Though when I begin listening to Japanese, they automatically open soon. The other day I tried TOEIC in our class. It was for the first time to me. I was shocked, for I couldn't finish to the end. By this time next year, I woder if the lids will open a little bit. I worry what will happen to me on down road.